We are allowed to love ourselves
Talk about a lesson worth learning
Few things spring to the front
of my self-maligning mind
faster than your way with words sprung
when I found out we were over
And that has to stop
Living what’s left of my days
in an attempt to beautify
the you which lives rent-free in my head
will continue to cost me
my own confidence
And I finally understand that there’s
no reason to think you’re worth it
You’re long gone, after all
What I deal with is but a shadow
of who you used to be
Who you really are now,
I don’t get to know
-hell, I don’t want to know
That doesn’t make me a bad person
We ended poorly,
and that’s taken me too long to accept
It happens
But I’ve been shouldering all of the blame;
still trying to protect someone who
didn’t just leave—they scrubbed
any hint of me clean out of their reality
And there are things about myself
I can try to improve on as a result
But someone else’s eraser
does not, ourselves, erase
If we care enough to do
any self-reflection in the face of loss,
that should say plenty
to other people like us
that people like us are not monsters
Losers, perhaps,
but some losses are the biggest wins
And too many of us
fail understanding as much
We get so lost in championing
those we love (or have tried to)
that we forget to cheer for ourselves
And a hollow outline
of who we set out to be
is no way to go through life
For the void does not offer;
all it knows how to do is take
So trust yourself while on the way
to sorrow’s exit
Because no matter who you lose,
or how many people seem to hate you,
there is only one person in the world
guaranteed to always be there;
it’s that someone you see
in every mirror
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