POEM - Rest Easy

You’ll never know, because

I knew of no way to explain

Decades of silence ended,

only to be cruelly cut short

with such masterful finality

that shock and regret are the

dominant waves in my flooded mind

  

This was expected

We’ve both done beautifully

without the other

And we did take the time

to say those more meaningful things

before this goodbye

Only our goodbye never came;

as even our hello remained incomplete

  

And we both know why

It’s because there was ceaseless rain

washing away all the words

I meant to give you

But your voice in my head

has never stopped speaking

  

You wanted your life to be

a message of hope

And so it is

So it has been, ever since we

were kids playing at love

Ever since you first chose to be

that unconditionally kind heart

on the other end of the line

  

You can’t know how much that meant

And you can’t know because

I never told you;

at least not the way I wanted it told

But the girl I knew would have said

that whatever I could afford would suffice

And that bit of beautiful truth

leaves me sad to see the woman—

who I now know she became

—have to go