Is it pretending if I claim
that my love for you is nothing more
than potential’s protection;
a vicarious projection?
Perhaps, if we keep on like this
for long enough, I’ll be able to
convince myself of said lie
And I like to think I’d welcome a change
Our entanglement has, after all,
turned me into naught but
one of your connotations
People dig into my soil,
only to toss their shovels aside;
quickly admitting, “Wow, that girl
really did a number on him.”
I have to wonder if that was the point;
your intended desire
Even if it was, you’re not to blame
I did this to me
This is who I let myself become;
too terrified of viewing time’s line
without narrowing in on
the handful of movie-worthy moments
we wound up amounting to
before the abrupt and confusing conclusion
Jolting from a theater before the previews end
Disappointing you on your birthday
A home-cooked meal in your kitchen
Smoking outside the bar
Touching you in full view of the mob
A simple statement, and complex kiss
Blackout confessions to combat the quiet
Coincidences we dare not acknowledge
A barrage of ‘how it should be’ dreams
Reconciliation when the sky started falling
Finally, whatever the hell is happening now;
both dreading and wanting what happens next
I look at you, and see Andromeda
I look at myself, and see Pluto’s moons
What notice will you take of me
as the Milky Way is mingled?
Will I even exist by the time you arrive?
While some piece of me knows
that you secretly suffer as well,
the vast majority of my self can’t deny
that you seem happier not holding
my hand
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