When you ghosted, I buried my own bones
in another woman’s spirited mouth
And she sucked every ounce
of love I felt for you
from this heart of mine…
for a time
I likely could have moaned your full name
while drowning out whatever response
might have come into her throat,
and she’d still have been happy
to hold me afterward
How strange, then,
that all I ever wanted her to be…
was you
“I’m not going to fuck the two of you,
if that’s what you’re thinking.”
The thought never even crossed my mind
I was saying goodnight to my soulmate
You were secretly saying goodbye
And compared to all the poor decisions
I’d made, while only half-considering
that you wouldn’t wait forever,
your choice was essentially perfect…
perfectly painful
The only thing you could have done
to hurt me more would be to die
So, as we spin our feeble flames
nearer again to the other
on this same old collision course
with the sun
—surrounded by death and disease—
thanks are what I owe you…
for not yet being dead
When she ghosted, I buried our blood,
then lay what was left of my flesh
on the tissuey topsoil
But nothing ended as a result
Instead, you slowly came back to me;
first, in the form of inimitable flowers,
and eventually as a voice
outside of my head
It all sounds so ugly when put on paper,
but I hope it makes you beam,
knowing all I can do is listen…
for now
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