For the longest time now,
I’ve felt like an angry stranger
when facing most of the world
which exists outside of my head
I have lived lives apart from reality
while within the sanctity
of my hopeful imagination
And I’ve considered killing myself
when the pathetic fact of what I’d become
was no longer deniable;
that the most exciting moments
of my most average days
were all fiction —
nothing but stories I’d read aloud
in the silence of my thoughts
to keep myself engaged
in the unenviable monotony
of this ordinary which I allowed myself
to be reduced to
But the unexpected happens,
as we should expect it to
Hardship left me seeking ease
The discomfort could no longer
be comforted by make-believe
I took a chance on myself,
and found those dice were
still loaded in my favor
Now I’m looking at old dreams anew;
not counting them like puppeted corpses —
finding the only thing wrong with me
is how afraid I’ve been of loving myself,
or how blind I was to everyone else
You come home from your hard lives,
and get lost in a book, or a movie;
a video game, a song, or a glass of wine
You seek most any room there is,
or could be, so long as it’s not
the one you’re actually in
What you look forward to in life
is an escape from the one you’re living
As the entertainment opiates strengthen,
the chasm of unbodied brains
(as well as the desire for such a thing)
grows beyond our ability
to reach each other
I know because I am one of you
I know because I am now seeking
the joys of experiencing
both your brains and bodies,
yet finding that city
built of walking, talking flesh and blood
is a ghost town
Still, I am not ready to forget you
in favor of that next, virtual high
For I’ve come out of my meager matrix
with every intention of never denying
our tangible potential
And this is the part where you join me
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